My brother got me impatient just now by wanting to do something in a certain way and wanting me to do it instead of him doing it himself, which got me shouting with emotion. Although I rarely do that now, I didn't like it when I did it. Then I began to put myself in his shoes and figure out why he wanted it that way. And when I got the answer, I could empathize and began to understand more. But it's just in that moment in time the emotions came up first instead of the awareness.
I got a crossfit competition tomorrow on this crossfit even though it's not a big deal at all, I still feel the nerves. I realized no matter what it is, as long as it's competitive or if there's some sort of stake involved, I get nervous easily. Over the years I would say these nerves have gotten better at handling pressure but I still have a long way to go to not let it bother me physically. Now I'm feeling slightly weak in the knees just thinking about the whole thing tomorrow.
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