Mind My First Word And Energy

Today is a beautiful day and indeed a great day to be alive. The neighbouring haze has been felt here for the past week but it's not so bad to have caused any complaints. But whatever it is, it has not affected me in any way.

So even though the sun is somewhat filtered but it's still persisted with its strong rays and brightened everyday. And if it would rain, that would be more awesome.

I am beginning to realize the importance if that energy and words when starting a conversation. I am responsible for bringing down or lifting up the energy of a conversation so it is important to be aware of this. The outcome could depend solely on the beginning. Great lesson!

Go To Higher Ground And Find Greater Joy

I reminded myself to check my energy a few times throughout the day today as I was meeting a couple of overseas guests. I was aware to make sure I go in with highest energy and with the highest purpose as well. My intention was clear, which was to accommodate them and to find out what is needed of us. And I asked them the most important question, which was what I could do for them. And having set this internal tone for myself once again has helped me come out of meetings feeling great as I felt I have done my best.

Frankie has invited me to share a room with him in Kuching. I actually intended to room alone, to have that comfort and privacy. Then I thought about how this was such a rare opportunity to share a room and share time with a dear friend that I seldom get to see. And it's also a rare opportunity because Jennifer will not be joining us. So I told myself to grab this opportunity and forego whatever privacy or comfort or money that I could save; or at least I thought were the things that I wanted and move to a higher place of energy and intention. And it feels great to have done so.

Unclutter And Find Meaning

This Sunday I've decided to get out of my comfort zone and choose to have a productive morning before I have to go out. I decided to unclutter my room. I swept, wiped, mopped, and got rid of a lot of things that I don't need or have no use for anymore. After everything was done, the room felt cleaner and neater and I felt great just to have done this all by myself. I also commit to doing this at least once a month. A lot of things in life if we choose to ignore, if we don't stop and look, they will just go undiscovered and wouldn't mean anything. To unclutter is to find the meaning in what we own in life. 

Death Is Really Just Around The Corner

I don't like to get attached to pets but I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel some excitement when my brother was bringing two stray puppies back. But it's so funny that when we have such high intention about providing a good home for stray dogs, to feed and love them; and they in turn didn't want us and ran away on the first dawn. 

The phrase of not meant to be was louder than ever and was one that was also hard to swallow. But it really is about letting go and not gripping tight onto something. I'm glad to see that my brother sees it this way as well and cared more for the well-being of the puppies. He has the right intention because he's not stuck in the ego and his own selfish wants. It's about those puppies, not us. We do not own them so they will know what's best for themselves.

Yesterday when I'm lying down and not doing anything in particular, I suddenly caught this vision of images. In it I felt very deeply about how fragile an individual life is and how precious as well. It's the kind of feeling that touched something deep inside and I was moved by it. It's just one of those experiences where something becomes so crystal clear. And then it was gone. 

And for that brief moment I am very appreciative of my own life, because death is really just around the corner in the shadows of unknown. Again I feel very grateful to be one of the most fortunate people in this world because I have a roof over my head, around my loved ones, and there's nothing more that I want from life. I am just going to live it to the best I can in its honour.

Don't Let Others' Emotion Affect My Emotion

I woke up yesterday with so much negativity about the things that I have to face. I couldn't stop my mind from projecting into the future and creating scenes after scenes. It woke me up early and I couldn't go back to sleep, and I just lay there letting my mind ran. I was conscious what was happening but I couldn't stop it from continuing on. I literally shook myself on the bed, trying to snap out of it. It got frustrating because I couldn't shift it. So I was careful not to let this affect my whole day.

And when I had to encounter the issue, it was actually quite straight forward. Simple. And it was done. All that stress was actually for nothing. I knew I could trust myself to handle it, but somehow I think I didn't want to and just wanted to escape. I wasn't being myself. And so that caused the disalignment in me.

I also let others affect me. The more drama that was created, the more I get sucked in to it. The strange thing is that people are not being rocks in front of me, but maybe they are perceived by others as rocks, and others relay that to me, and my mind took that and ran with it. Gahhh, what's the lesson here. It's obvious but perhaps it's not.

Today being Saturday, my intention is to recuperate from all the exercise sessions that I've put my body through over the past few weeks. It's rare to go three days without exercise but I'm taking this opportunity to rest up and start again on Monday. So I'm declining all invites to work out today and just have some alone time and get some things done that I have put off.

Set Up The Day And The Day Will Set Me Straight

Setting up the day for yesterday when I woke up kind of helped. With the intention to be cool and calm to go through the day, I was made aware when I wasn't cool and calm. With that awareness immediately I was able to stop and check on why I'm not living in my intention and make adjustments straight away.

So today, my intention is to be cool and calm as I go through the day. Let's do this again.

Today Is Another Brand New Day

Today is another brand new day. Woke up feeling great. Its a beautiful cloudy and cool weather outside. My intention is to be as cool and calm as well and go through the day with high energy. Lots to do today and I shall go through them one by one.

Conquering Fear

Today I watched a movie that I would highly recommend the CV family. After Earth's tagline is "danger is very real, fear is a choice". And between the father and son, many life lessons and lessons about fear can be uncovered. In the end, it's about conquering fear. Fear can materialise in many forms, be it danger from environment or threat from beasts. But what if in order to survive, it is fear we have to let go of, how will we rise up to it? 

"Every decision you make is life and death" - and if we truly value this life we have, then we could treat every decision as life and death too. Amidst all the action, there's a beautiful story about a father and son relationship, about teaching and about letting go. 

It's a beautiful story beautifully told. One I would gladly revisit again.

Choose Not To Own Wants

I saw free international shipping from an apparel online store last night, put some items into the basket, and just before checking out, I asked myself what was the intention of getting these things. I can only hear the ego talking, wanting to own some nice tee shirt designs, and for the next half an hour I thought to myself on how I don't need more tees, how my cupboard is full with tees and I really don't need these tees because I only want them. That's the difference. So in the end, I let it go. These wants I have chosen not to own.

Intention And Resolve Will Fight Off Complacency

I woke up an hour later than usual today so I felt really refreshed the whole day. Maybe it was because of public holiday or maybe it's the supplements but I am really curious to find the reason. Then again, some things were meant to remain a mystery so I'm not too hung up on it. This is also about letting things go and being at peace with whatever happens.

I had to move in and out a lot today even though being a holiday. I had meetings and appointments spaced two hours between one another and in the middle I would go home for an hour. It was kind of a time wasting as I could have brought a book out and sit myself in a cafe and read in between but I didn't plan ahead. Nevertheless, I kept my energy up and got through meeting different people.

The interesting thing happened when I was about to go for my workout. My body and mind screamed because they were being lazy and didn't want to go out again. I kept asking myself what the intention was, and the answer was to work out. And I told myself that every time this reluctance happened, if I just see it through I know I would enjoy the work out and be more happy with myself that I had done it later. So that's exactly what happened. When complacency steps in, the intention and resolve will have to be strongest.

Power Without Harness Is Destructive

The power of the mind overcome me yesterday when I had to perform a birthday song. I've performed multiple times on stage bigger. But in the intimate and personal setting, my mind was louder than my heart and I didn't do my best. I projected a lot of fear and worry into the future and it materialised. So much so I have forgotten to give myself love and courage and confidence instead. All the practices I've done prior was no match for the power of the mind that had gone loose. Power without harness is destructive.

Nevertheless, I was complimented to have great energy throughout the night. And that was because I started out the night with clear intention and to open up myself to the people at a party. I walked up to every person that I didn't know and introduced myself. That must have opened up a door or broken down a wall that led me to have ease around a new environment. Interesting awareness.

Today I saw the opposite of going into a meeting without full alignment. Not that the meeting went wrong because it actually went well. But I knew it could have been better had there been alignment. The reason why we needed alignment was also the reason why there was no alignment in the first place. There were too many different parties involved, separated by time and purpose and responsibility. But if every party came together first before going into the meeting with the final piece of the puzzle, the result probably would have came to an agreement sooner and smoother.

Flying Solo Is Great

As I was driving a two hour journey I was forced to be with my own thoughts which doesn't come very easily with all the modern distractions. And I am appreciative of it because at some point it was meditative. I was able to go through a lot of things in my mind and feel a lot of things in my heart. I probably need to do an activity solo once a month to gather all these thoughts because I felt it was really good about it.

I spoke on the phone with a person I'm supposed to pass something to. When a person has negative energy it really blares out like a red siren. And it is when I encounter people like that, I am so easily affected as all my thoughts then became negative about the situation. I had to remind myself quite a few times to stop thinking and let go of that feeling. I do not have to own any of the negativity directed at me. I'll just do my best and I did, and everything turned out fine.

More and more I'm beginning to see the lesson in Xi'an manifest. Setting the tone and the intention before an activity makes making decisions and taking actions later on much easier. Since I was there for my friend's wedding, I really was there, fully present for him. All the decisions I had to make there became easier and clearer because my intention was clear. With clear intention there is no fear or fear of regrets.

Be In The Flow Of It All

Things happen that's beyond our control most of the times. The only way through is to be in the flow. So what if I don't get the code to renew my pre-paid electricity bill. So what if it will run out in the middle of the night. So what if I probably will be awaken when there's no fan. I'll deal with these things when the time comes and just sleep while I can. And I did wake up at 5 a.m. But saw on my phone that the code came in at 2.30 a.m. Great, I'll just have to get out of bed and go outside to input the code. Took a while to get back to sleep but everything works out fine in the end. Nothing to fret about.

Today I have to make a drive down to Miri for a friend's wedding. I have to pick up a passenger who I don't know. Great, another person to connect with and who can be my navigator. My intention today is to be aware of my environment and surrounding, to be mindful of my surroundings and to be safe on the road. And since I have missed the morning session of the wedding, I'll contribute whatever I can later at night and help make this the best night for my friend.