We Are The Most Important Person In Our Own Life

This morning a friend shared a great awareness he recently had. He said we only become more careful when there is another life in our hands, an easy example would be when we're driving.

I realised also I become a more careful driver when I have a passenger. Often times we forget that we always have a precious life in our hands that we have to safeguard - which is our own. And we always don't see our own life as important enough or just take it for granted and not put enough emphasis on ourselves when in fact, we are the most important person in our own life!

Being Prepared For A Presentation

Learned from my last presentation of being too relaxed and not having prepared enough, this time going in I made sure I was prepared enough to know the flow of what I was going to talk about and still being relaxed before going in. And the result was a smoother presentation which I was more satisfied about.

With new owners stepping in there are new faces and even more requirements. It was another long 4 hours of sitting through a lot of issues that may not have much to do with Brunei side. Nonetheless, it was a good experience to witness how a very new but very experienced CEO ran the meeting and pinpoint on the departments that were not up to par.

And with my dad's experience, he had us arrive earlier to meet the new head honcho and we had a good introductory chat. Just so happened that he was tasked to chairing the meeting too and I realised that had I not met him prior to this I would have been even more nervous presenting our results to him. Having met him beforehand showed me his human side and not just the title he held.

A lot of learnings and awareness throughout the day, and being prepared means a lot more now than just preparing a presentation.

Life Is A Matter Of Perspectives And Awareness

Life is a matter of perspectives. I always am bothered by this little killoid on my chest. I, not I, my mind always complain about it to me and sometimes I get swayed.

Until I saw my cousin who has it on both shoulders and even his jaw. And he's been through multiple injections in those areas just to reduce the size and effects of the killoids.

Here's when I see that I haven't had it bad at all.

But the awareness behind the awareness is that I don't have to wait till I get a different perspective to appreciate what I got even if it's bothersome. I just have to be thankful that I'm alive. If I have to wait for other perspectives to come along, I'm wasting my life away. And who knows, those perspectives may never come anyway.Life

Remove The Emotions

Saw emotions were high today due to unpleasant situations. But as I was not there when the incident happened, I realised that I have more of an unbiased and calm view; and is a better person to make decision. I also realise that the best thing to do is to remove the emotional person out of the picture because when dealing things with emotion our judgement will always be clouded. This is also something for me to learn, to remove my being from my emotion so that I can have a clearer view and make sound decisions. This is the best state of being also when being a leader.

Impatient Teens

The young teenagers in Singapore I encountered during a queue for lunch surprised me greatly. They do not have patience and kept voicing their dissatisfaction at the store staff in a continuous manner. I think the life of the Singaporean is getting really fast paced and they are trained in and with efficiency. Worse was when an older gentleman came at the queue from the other side and put in his order before the teenagers did. One of the more vocal ones wouldn't let him off without speaking out loud to insult him continuously in sarcasm. 

My awareness of this awareness is that I could have stopped this from happening if I had spoken up to the gentleman. Whether or not he did it deliberately I should have found out. I watched all these unfold and then had noise pollution and the immediate environment around me had lousy energy. But if I had told him that the queue started in the other direction, I would have saved myself the hostile environment as well.

No Such Thing As 'More'

Today was the first time in three weeks that I had a really good exercise. I did exercise while in China but I was without an environment that really pushes my limits; so today was quite an exertion. 

I must be more aware to exercise more while I travel because after a good work out and a good sweating session I find myself more alive. 

But I'm grateful to be able to go back to a familiarity that pushes me into the unknown. I can feel that there's a safety behind the risk that's quite comforting to pursue and push my limits. Wow, what an awareness as this just came while I'm typing this out. 

And I want to say I want to look out for more but then I found that I'm catching this thought and telling it that there is no such thing as "more" but only appreciation for what is, and no need to search but just be ready to receive when it comes.

A Beautiful Sunday Indeed

Today I'm grateful for the rain that drizzled the whole afternoon away, bringing with it a cool weather that almost felt like I was back in Xi'an. It is definitely a rare Sunday afternoon that was windy and refreshing without the sun, and I was able to relax with the wind.

I'm also grateful that I had the opportunity to go out for a drive and enjoy the wet weather from outside of my house. I was feeling lethargic indoors and that trip really charged me up as I get closer to nature. A beautiful Sunday indeed.

Office Comfort Zone

First day back at the office yesterday after a 2 week absence and I was conscious enough to keep checking my energy before encountering other people there but what I kept realising was that I wasn't able to keep my energy at 10. And this must mean that my comfort zone at the office is a low energy one which I kept falling back into. And it's not a good feeling to realise this because most of my days are spent here. So for the rest of the year it's time to change the comfort zone in the office and bring my energy level to a high point so that I can become a better leader as well.

What brought down my energy was to come back and find out that certain things were not done. At one point I could have up the temper a little and show my displeased side but honestly that wouldn't accomplish anything and I would just bring down my energy further. Mistakes made, even with good reasons, we move on and make the future a better one.

Last night presented a rare opportunity for me to go to the movies with my parents. We have not done this in years because we never really plan movies together. Thinking back at the night I really enjoyed the experience as I got to share a passion of mine with my parents and we had a nice discussion of our awareness after that.

Comfort Zone To Complacency

Having spent most of the last two weeks in China with no access to this site and many more, how very silly, I was unable to make any posts.

But today I'm grateful to be back home and will sleep in my own bed. There is a certain familiarity here that I like to indulge myself in. And thus opens up a whole lot of issues on familiarity and where it will lead to comfort zone. Familiarity is comfort zone, in the negative context where there are expectations and assumptions made. And the search for anything ceases. Complacency will ensue if without a higher intention of appreciation for what is comfort and how does this bed serve me and my spirit. 

By serving my restful slumber it will open up more possibilities of a better functionality of my body, mind and spirit.

Today I was also aware of how certain people attempts to make conversations by venting or complaining about their situations or mutual acquaintances. Herein also lies certain comfort which I find distasteful to indulge. But I recognise that it is an attempt at making a connection at the level that they know how and without awareness. I hold the responsibility then to take the conversation to a higher level of awareness and uplifting them. Another way would be to walk away.