No One Should Dictate My Best

When I evaluated a speaker in toastmaster, this very good speaker made my job very easy and my evaluation was one of the better ones. And it made me recall the previous time when I had to evaluate a not so good speaker, my evaluation wasn't good at all and I beat myself up for it.

This means that I'm not doing my best when this happens. No one should dictate or affect how good I'm doing. The only person that can hold me back is myself and if I do that to myself, then I'm not doing myself any justice.

Big City Catharsis

Being "stuck" in a car with the family for a few hours is great because there's nothing else to do but connect and align. It's like catching up with one another and seeing where we are at at that time of our lives.

I'm back in Singapore and did the one thing I like best here which is watching movies at the cinemas. And I saw an elderly man who already is slow in his walk, watching movies on his own. It suddenly hit me that maybe that could be me and if I could still do this thing that I love, if I still had this same freedom he has at his age, it wouldn't be so bad.

Walked past a youth here on the streets who was inadvertently stopped in his tracks by another man and he gave a very impatient"excuse me" followed by a very nasty curse after a few steps later. I was shocked at the kind of attitude this youth had. I wonder if this is a common trait of a big city. It would be tragic if everyone is used to this kind of catharsis and "big city" was the only excuse for it. I know for sure the youths of Brunei aren't as hot headed or nasty.