Letting Go And Just Let It Be

Two big awareness for me today. One is that when I didn't say no to others and had to follow through, my mind would start nagging at me and start to project a lot of negativity into the future. Just now was probably the first time I was aware of how negative my mind can get when it feels like it's been forced to do something against its will. Why not just carry on forward, let go of the feeling, and live in the moment. It took a lot of being present to do just that while I went through the process of the action just now.

The other one was that when out of the blue I was told between 7 and 11 pm there will be heavy rain, I almost cancelled my plans to be out. Only to find that it was actually not such a bad thunderstorm that warranted a warning. But because something out of the ordinary came along, I started worrying about how bad it could have gotten and instead of just letting it be. Whatever comes will come. This after all is Brunei, no weather will ever be that bad.

Funny how things turned out the way it did tonight. But in the end, I was still alright. In the past, I don't think tonight would have ended on such a positive note. I have changed. I have let go of a lot of my thoughts. And I really appreciate myself for it.