I woke up yesterday with so much negativity about the things that I have to face. I couldn't stop my mind from projecting into the future and creating scenes after scenes. It woke me up early and I couldn't go back to sleep, and I just lay there letting my mind ran. I was conscious what was happening but I couldn't stop it from continuing on. I literally shook myself on the bed, trying to snap out of it. It got frustrating because I couldn't shift it. So I was careful not to let this affect my whole day.
And when I had to encounter the issue, it was actually quite straight forward. Simple. And it was done. All that stress was actually for nothing. I knew I could trust myself to handle it, but somehow I think I didn't want to and just wanted to escape. I wasn't being myself. And so that caused the disalignment in me.
I also let others affect me. The more drama that was created, the more I get sucked in to it. The strange thing is that people are not being rocks in front of me, but maybe they are perceived by others as rocks, and others relay that to me, and my mind took that and ran with it. Gahhh, what's the lesson here. It's obvious but perhaps it's not.
Today being Saturday, my intention is to recuperate from all the exercise sessions that I've put my body through over the past few weeks. It's rare to go three days without exercise but I'm taking this opportunity to rest up and start again on Monday. So I'm declining all invites to work out today and just have some alone time and get some things done that I have put off.
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